I got married when I was 23 years old, and for a while I was unhappy. I couldn't break up our marriage cuz I had always believed divorce was not an option. So I tried to live one day at a time, not over-thinking the future, hoping that things will get better some day.

The problem was, it was all me, my wife didn't do anything to upset me and she's genuinely innocent. I didn't laugh when she was telling jokes, mainly because she can't tell jokes and always mess up the punchline, it's also because I didn't love her anymore, but I tried to crack a smile as hard as it was.

I didn't even notice when she wore something new or fixed herself for me. I was aware of my problem and that's why I was going crazy, the fact that it's all me. That being said, I have never hurt her or even said something unpleasant to her, I never acted on those feelings, I kept my shit to myself.

One day I had to just get away for a while, clear my mind, and try and see a bigger picture, if there was one. Of course I didn't make it seem like i'm taking a break or anything, i'm a good actor.

So I left, and took a road trip. Driving always helped me get better for the night. I drive alone and talk out loud and let it all out so I don't burst up and explode during the day.

接著我開啟了我的公路之旅,獨自一人開夜車讓我覺得好過些,我大聲講話,讓情緒發(fā)泄,這樣不至于在白天失控爆發(fā)。

Nothing happened during those silent days of driving, except that she called me twice everyday to check on me.

她從來都沒有漏打過一個電話,突然間我意識到,我就是要等她忘記打電話給我,我愈來愈覺得自己是一個十足的混蛋。一天在開車時,我突然清醒了,我邊微笑邊哭泣,這種感覺真是太美妙了。

My mind drew a picture for me and here it is.. My wife crying while i'm not there or I can't see her, then she gathers herself and acts normal when im there, and tries to tell a joke just to get me to smile even though she knows she can't tell jokes, and for some reason, she was wearing a white dress.

I was thinking about my own happiness so much that I forgot to think about how miserable i'm making her feel. I never hated myself more than I did at that moment.

我只顧自己的喜樂,卻忘了顧及她的感受。在那一刻,我從未如此討厭自己。

I turned the car around and drove home, and while i'm on the road, I kept imagining her in that white dress. It made me happy. And I recalled some of the jokes she had told me before, and I laughed about how she messed up the punchline every time.That was three years ago, we had two daughters since then and I can't believe how lucky I am that I didn't mess it up. I'm thankful that she didn't leave me when she had every excuse to. I'm not exaggerating when I tell you that with every love song that I hear, I think of her.我將車掉頭駛向家,一路上我不停想象著那穿那條白裙子的樣子,這讓我很開心。

接著我想起了之前她給我講的那些笑話,想起她每次都說不好笑話的梗,我笑了。3年前,我有了兩個女兒,我不敢相信自己是多么幸運,而且我也沒有(像之前一樣)把事情搞的不愉快。我很感激她沒有離開我,即使在她完全有理由這么做的情況下。一點都不夸張的講,之后每當(dāng)我聽到情歌,我就會想起她。

So to the people who think they don't love their partners anymore, dig a little deeper. There's a scene in the movie Hachi: A Dog's Tale, where the father asks his daughter's boyfriend, "Do you love my daughter? Because that's what you want to remember in the bad days."

那些覺得自己不愛父母的人,請在捫心自問下。在關(guān)于狗狗電影《《忠犬八公的故事》中,有一個場景父親曾問女兒的男朋友,“你愛我的女兒么?因為在以后不愉快的日子里你也要記得這點(你愛我的女兒)。

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